Surprise sometimes will come around, surprise sometimes will come around. I will surprise you sometime, I’ll come around. Oh, I will surprise you sometime, I’ll come around. When you’re down…
The bright lights flickered as the heavy oak bar door closed slowly right in front of me and the laughter from the people inside died down. It was more than standing outside a bar looking in, it felt like being in a different time continuum, an orbit a million miles away, unable to grasp the severity of what is happening on the other side.
I keep watching through the murky door glass inlays. His arm casually around the blonde next to him as she laughs about his joke and he beams at her. A look, that for the past few months has been reserved for me, or so I thought. People say life doesn’t change overnight and I agree. But mine seemingly did change within only 48 hours. That well-known looming expiration date suddenly was handed to me. Signed, sealed, delivered, not yours anymore. And even though I assured everyone I did, I really didn’t see it coming.
I blamed myself, I should have known. Can you ever really prepare for an ending? Especially if it involves being replaced? I don’t think so. And there I was, standing in my orbit, utterly stunned and suddenly minus one that never really felt like a plus one
To read more, follow along on Substack
